So, I had no plans for tonight. There was a time this would have super-bothered me, but thank God, I am no longer at a point where I need plans in order to prove to myself that I have friends, and I am generally good at enjoying my own company. I enjoy reading, writing, listening to music, and watching documentaries or really wacky foreign movies - all of which are easily done by oneself.
A friend said he might want to hang out later, and being phoneless, I gave him the home phone of my friends in case he wants to call when he gets into Jerusalem. I kind of regret doing that - I feel like my alone-time tonight hasn't been as productive as it could have been, because I have this feeling that at any moment I might have to do my hair and rush off into the night. Maybe I should have just told him tonight was a no, and we'd hang out another time - but since my instinct so often is to be alone, I try to force myself to say yes to social occassions. I guess ultimately there was no clear wrong or right, so I should stop beating myself up over it, especially since my "less productive" involves watching news programs and reading poetry online, which I'd like to think is not a complete waste of time.
I really would like to find free online legal Spanish and Portuguese stuff to watch online in order to practice my language skills, but so far my youtube searches have been unsuccesful -all the stuff I can dreg up (is dreg a word when used as a verb?) is too boring to watch. I get some caminho das indias clips, but never in order, which makes it impossible to follow the plot and therefore boring. Sad but true.
Also, www.poets.org has a great collection of online poetry.
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